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flightless

by lovedoll

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1.
soft 03:33
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ignited every time i see your face cause baby you’re the match and we together fan the flames rifle through my long list of complaints but when you come around my brain can only fire blanks you make me so soft, babe smooth me down to a paste try to explode at your door hesitate to detonate said i can’t hurt you anyways you make me soft babe so soft babe even with my heart up in a cage i can’t find the will to bend, can’t find the strength to break the steel bars i need to liberate instead i melt myself a little more to keep your pace wish i wasn’t so soft babe wanna be on the same page wanna just blow it up but misfire my malaise wish you didn’t turn me so soft so soft babe so soft babe so soft babe so soft
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waterlogged 03:55
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morning sun beams through the glass mourning sin seeps through the cracks creeps through these veins like a rush, a high spent so long drunk now spend all the time dry spend the time dry new pain starts, like turning a key thought it twisting the knife thought it prodding a roadkill never realized it was still alive expected to not have survived memories from the storm flood back brings with it a bleak forecast waterlogged mind, inundate every day can’t feel the fulfillment must’ve been washed away been washed away new pain starts, like turning a key thought it twisting the knife thought it prodding a roadkill never realized it was still alive expected to not have survived can’t get out of bed don’t see much a point don’t see how to forget can’t silence the noise could start to pretend just to feel drunk again wouldn’t make much a change still wake with a pounding head new pain starts, like turning a key thought it twisting the knife thought it prodding a roadkill never realized it was still alive days hurt as they’re passing by hurting as the days pass by
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brat 03:11
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ash on my face, blood on the pages you look at me like i’m someone who hated you it wasn’t true cause you spoke your mind i ran away and you grew so tired of all of the chasing told you i can’t promise a change but gotta mean streak it’s one for the books if you only kept reading once you’re past the hook hard to be around even harder to hold know i can be a brat but i still want to grow old with you thought i was too much until i felt your touch you weren’t afraid to call my bluff hugged me through the spikes pushed past the spite when i pushed you away you pulled me tight but i’ve got a mean streak and it’s one for the books won’t you keep reading? once you’re past the hook know i’m impossible so hard to love know i act like a brat but i still can’t get enough of you know there’s not much left to save and i took a piss on our grave i know we burnt our house to the ground i’d still wipe the ash from your mouth i’ll always love you long as i’m with you you i’m with you i’m with you i’m with you
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mountain's trench 03:45
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i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you do you want it from me? i’ll be better won’t complain start up the wash clear the stains i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you do you want it from me? what a ride i’m strapped in peaks and streams mountain’s trench i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you do you want it from me? i think i want it all from you i think i want it all from you want it all from you you don’t want it oh, you don’t want it you don’t want it from me you don’t want it from me
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bedside 04:10
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you should know by now that i stay away, away from you though i’m not gone i’ll fade soon, fade to blue like the candle on the bedside my flame’s diffused, flames diffuse i still let you light me up but you don’t come through, won’t come through i’ll just keep this to myself but you’ll wake soon to a blank room it’s only me that’s getting out i can’t make you make moves left a note right on your night stand it won’t sink in, won’t leave you thinking but it’s the most i have ever felt so just drink in the sequence it’s the most i’ve ever felt the most i’ve ever felt the most it’s the most i’ve ever felt the most i’ve ever felt the most it’s the most i’ve ever felt the most i’ve ever felt the most
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flawed 02:42
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put on my male jacket my male jeans and my male shoes step out of the house look out at the world and see the pawns that i can use my complex inner world justifies my ways if purity is godliness then how could anyone look away? guess what? i’m flawed :/ no i’m just being humble >:) i don’t think there’s anything wrong so stay strong and hold out hope my ego isn’t stringing you along just cause i’m flawed look in the mirror i don’t get it when i lose just misunderstood a fragile genius with the blues my complex inner world no one can relate if purity is godliness i just make the world my stage guess what? i’m flawed :/ no i’m just being humble >:) i don’t think there’s anything wrong so stay strong and hold out hope my ego isn’t stringing you along just cause i’m flawed
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callous 03:41
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must have fell to my knees one too many times for you ripped new holes in my jeans, so we were clean, it felt new i grabbed ahold of your arms i held so hard both your wrists you must have thought me cuffs, and so you cut me from your limbs now off you go, another man when you know our bigger plans my knees were scraped i never cared bruise up my bones you hold my hair i hoped they’d callous but i’m just bleeding bare you kept yourself safe, made sure nothing broke the skin so when unearthed you remained unscathed by the sin i wish i had that built in armor that you’ve donned so it didn’t kill me to know how well you’ve moved on you did now off you go, another man when you know our bigger plans my knees were scraped i never cared bruise up my bones you hold my hair you were so callous and i so easily teared it’s really over, wonder when it will feel real seems like just yesterday that we were made of steel searching for the point at which i lost my appeal i’d give up anything if it meant that we healed home to me come home to me come home to me home now off you go, another man when you know our bigger plans my knees were scraped i never cared bruise up my bones you hold my hair you were so callous and i so easily teared
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rife with rot 04:08
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the hole in my shoe seems to fester over time rife with rot smothered dirt all on the sides the hole in my shoe i never have to question why so worn down it’s like you were never mine the hole in my shoe makes me want to stay inside i don’t wanna have to face what i don’t have anymore the hole in my shoe makes the ground wash my feet the dull freezing ache makes me lose my appetite every day shave off more of my sole every day wanna walk a little less worn myself into this pair of boots don’t wanna have to break in again i can’t toss you out yet, if it’s time for a new pair i’ll sooner tape it up for the illusion of repair you are the hole in my shoe the hole in my shoe the dull ache cold feet hole in my shoe
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for you, for her, for someone 04:36
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everyday living, i am for you and if not for you, i am for her every day living, for someone deflate my lungs for it for you, i’ll forego food for you, i’ll give my shirt and if it doesn’t fit you i’ll get another shirt for you when does it become that it’s for me that i get seen (for real seen) when does it become that i get your understanding understanding i’ve understood for so long you, and her, and someone placed aside my knowing for the sake of peace value most the safety that comes with your company maybe that’s why i always run i run ‘cause i’m not me i run ‘cause i’m not seen when does it become that i get it i’m not holding i’m being held when does it become that i know care from you, her, someone i want i need i need for me that care from someone instead i live for you for her and for someone ugh
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bird bath 01:54
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it didn’t mean much of anything not for you anyways rolling your collection of rocks to avalanche this hilly blaze now the water from the bath weighs me down too much to soar so i weigh the cost of keeping still the lave christens me to the floor to the floor to the floor to the floor mangled feathers catch jittery wind their bloodied state doesn’t favor flight wash it away in the rusted bird bath abandon it red-stained for the night for the night you mean nothing anymore you mean nothing anymore you mean nothing anymore
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sand dollar 03:33
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walk down the beach sun lights your curls a brighter shade of blonde a gleam in the eyes your smile unfurls is this how your face lives on? will i remember the sand in our toes the sun so bright on our skin or will it be the hollowed cheeks sleepless bags and jaundice? walk down the beach the tide comes in pulls you out to the ocean won’t turn your back let the water inflate what’s left of your organs and in the tide’s wake you found a sand dollar half-buried “we’re rich!” you said, and i laughed, and breathed i still breathe i watched as they pleaded, tried pulling to shore knowing it wouldn’t cease felt the guilt wash over me for not helping but only i know where you wanted to be know you found your home in the sea in the sea in the sea
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stormchaser 03:21
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i won’t leave i won’t leave i’ll stay right here i’m not scared anymore i’ll be there i’ll be there when you’re crying you’re not extinguishing me you’re not too much can’t get enough i’ll learn to be better to withstand every weather your changing storms don’t leave me worn won’t get chased away like everyone before i’ll understand i’ll understand and even when i don’t i’ll just let you get it out you’re not too much can’t get enough i’ll learn to be better to withstand every weather your changing storms don’t leave me worn won’t get chased away like everyone before i won’t leave like everyone before won’t leave you no matter the storm

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this album meets me where i'm at now. hear me learn to live with grief.

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released April 15, 2022

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lovedoll Seattle, Washington

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